Because He has Plans for Me

For the past few days, I kept asking myself why we meet people who are not meant to stay in our lives. I tried to convince myself it is because the Lord wants to use the person as an instrument to mold us into a better person in the ministry which we are working on, whatever may that be. It is actually so easy to say but I can't convince myself hard enough to believe in that reason. With this verse, I have been reminded that no matter how much we don't understand what situation we are encountering right now, the Lord always has the BEST plans for us and won't give us that situation if He knows we won't be able to handle it.

As I quote Mother Teresa, I know God won't give me anything I can't handle. I just wish He didn't trust me so much. 

Jollibee - Choose happiness

I'm a proud Pinoy kid and still getting kilig seeing this bee! Haha 😍 #makajeje

Okay, so some things I realized today. We can choose to be bitter or we can choose to be happy. I could be bitter being in an all familiar place with an all familiar food in a super loud place. I could have faced my device the entire time the program was running. Or, I could be happy seeing this all time favorite bee dancing and entertaining around making kids and adults alike happy. 

And I was happy! In fact, happier than I should be given that I'm categorically an adult in a kid's party. (Nibalik pagka gamayng bata in other words) Haha. That may be because I saw my baby happy and was playing with this bee. My nephew, the celebrant, was happy with the bee. Everyone seemed to be in happyland!

So with healthy precaution, let tomorrow worry on it's own. Today, let's choose to be happy. I just lost a very dear friend last week, Marchan. He would have said the same thing. Choose simple happiness. 😊

Little One's Baptism and a Series of Abundance

As this big day for my little one comes to an end, I can't help but reflect. After abruptly deciding to have LO baptized just three days before the event, it has never been in the picture to celebrate this day with quite a number of guests because of financial constraints. The gathering should've been just us, the parents, and the godparents without any other mundane cutesy preparation after LO receives his sacrament of baptism. 

Parenting101. Moving on from the blues @Day15.

I always wanted to finish my masters degree, pursue a career in development work, travel inside and outside the country, explore more interests, meet more idealistic people and the list goes on. I sure do envision having a family of my own someday but I thought I could get away with the poop and the nappies and just leave the raising up of the kids to the household help just like what society thinks of what an empowered career woman does. 

Now that parenting happened to me, a mom of a 15 day old tiny human being, all of the above mentioned have changed! Note that I have literally NEVER touched a newborn my entire life. In the environment where I grew up, there were no newborns to touch with in the first place. I want to be hands on with everything that concerns about the baby even if I have the slightest idea of doing so. I want to free myself from the guilt of being selfish to prioritize other things but not my own little baby who depends on me. I can't even bring myself to think that a stranger will take my place and do the loving instead! No, I just can't leave him like that.

Everything changes once the baby arrives. Mainly, the priorities. Family comes first now. And when I see my two boys bonding, I know I am where the happiest I will be. The dreams I used to have are now carefully incorporated with the welfare of the baby and my kids to come. This is just the beginning. I am excited of what God's plan for me and my family is! 💙

Almost there, Baby Z!

Taken at thirty five weeks and three days (04-19-15).

Room 907 Crown Regency Hotel and Towers, Cebu City.

So there, the photos are already laid out for every stumbling soul to scrutinize. There's no turning back now. The anxiety of being judged is there. But to fear is nothing if truth sets us free. Yeah yeah, we got church married but not the grand one. Not the one that he and I excitedly planned and talked about before he came home from overseas. Baby Z happened, that's why. The wedding was just a handful and a half of guests who were there to witness. Nonetheless, and what is more important is that, the ceremony was binding. Papers and all and of course the priest's blessing - which means we were able to receive the holy Sacrament of Matrimony.