Sunday, May 11, 2014

Musing on the Ambivalence

I HAVE TO RESIGN IN THIS KIND OF JOB. Sooner than later, I have to. With the kind of life I want to live, that is an eminent fact. They said, there's no better time for change than NOW. Or not really. Word just got in from the great Bo. He said, stop comparing and start living! If I do this, I'd be happy to spend money I have not earned in whatever ways I wanted without having to feel guilty about it! Will that ever be possible.... 

Going back to this kind of job. I think it is totally a waste of time and talent to work just to earn money and not enjoy doing it. That for me is life lived to barely exist. I also know for a fact that it when someone is doing something, he should make the most out of it or give his best in doing the job to avoid regrets and maximize his potential. So the thing is, the evil lurking in my mind says that I haven't given my best in this job, the one which attempts to solve the phone calls coming from irate customers who thinks the world is against them just because they're not getting what they want. And I can't blame myself. I never want to work for those kind of people! Who does anyway? But here I am with the exact kind of job description which I am whining about. In the end, I could choose to love my job and make the most out of it. Or stop this madness and find the courage to do whatever is needed to have the world at my feet.  It takes a big leap of faith to embrace change. Great things come with change. And all great things never came easy. 

Or maybe I just overthink? I must submit my resignation letter. YES.